3rd Cycle of Chemo

My 3rd cycle of chemo was a fun day. My friend Josephine came with me. She stayed the whole time. We talked so much. All I remember of that day was that we laughed and talked non-stop. The day went by so fast. This time, when I was give the Benadryl in IV, I warned Josephine how it would effect me and make it hard to talk for a while.

I started to act out what I meant

She looked at me with wide eyes. Then, when it was time to get the Benadryl, I told her that I would let her know how it was effecting me as it was coursing through me veins.

We laughed so hard as it started to affect me. I felt so high and burst out laughing. I wondered what the other people in the main room were thinking. I know cancer and getting chemo treatments was not a laughing matter, however, laughter is good for the soul, and I just had let it loose. I would show you a picture of Josephine, since we did take pictures, however, I couldn’t find one.

The day went by pretty quickly

After my infusion, we left and came straight back to my apartment. The drive is usually 50 minutes, sometimes longer depending on traffic. Nevertheless, we had a great conversation on the way back. Let me tell you a little bit about Josephine. She is the co-leader of our creative worship team at church. Her and Mahesh lead it. Josephine is hilarious. A breathe of fresh air. She has a vibrant personality and can talk easily.

Having her join me at my 3rd chemo cycle was such a blessing to my heart.

Never a dull moment. I hadn’t seen her in a while because I had stopped attending our creative worship meeting after chemo started. I had forgotten how fun she was. When I think of the church I attend, and the women that I get to partner with in ministry, my heart sings. These women are genuine, kind, and fun.

Who knows where my cancer journey will lead

or how many years I have left on this side of heaven. I just know that I would like to make memories with these women through the creative arts. Maybe God has plans for me to share my journey publicly, and how having a proper perspective has kept me at peace, joy, and fearless of the future. I have to say that receiving this diagnosis of “incurable cancer” has not moved me. I truly have no fear of the disease process.

I look forward to the outcome

As a worshiper and lover of God, I know that if my body declines and dies, I will only get a new body fit for a different realm. I will never die because I am eternal. Just like you are. So, it truly is a win win. If God has more for me to do this side of heaven, my body will continue to function at the level needed. I may also receive a creative miracle. Nevertheless, when it’s time to cross over, all will be made new and I’ll become a part of the cloud of witness, be with Jesus, reunite with my family and friends, and prepare for my involvement in the 2nd coming of Christ.

There is hope in the valley of the shadow of death

Psalms 23 states 

“The Lord is my best friend and my shepherd. I always have more than enough. He offers a resting place for me in his luxurious love. His tracks take me to an oasis of peace, the quiet brook of bliss. That’s where he restores and revives my life.

He opens before me pathways to God’s pleasure and leads me along in his footsteps of righteousness so that I can bring honor to his name.

Lord, even when your path takes me through the valley of deepest darkness, fear will never conquer me, for you already have! You remain close to me and lead me through it all the way. Your authority is my strength and my peace. The comfort of your love takes away my fear. I’ll never be lonely, for you are near.

You become my delicious feast even when my enemies dare to fight. You anoint me with the fragrance of your Holy Spirit; you give me all I can drink of you until my heart overflows.

So why would I fear the future? For your goodness and love pursue me all the days of my life. Then afterward, when my life is through, I’ll return to your glorious presence to be forever with you!”

These sacred words are my perspective during this cancer journey

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